Pen to paper, fingertips to keys, and the mind to the infinite expanse.
That is how many of my thoughts and emotions are sorted out. I have to spill them onto a blank canvas to consider everything from different perspectives.
Sometimes its easy and, when I step back, there is a clear picture laid out before me. Its like dumping a bag of marbles on a hardwood floor. You must hold still and wait a moment but when they all stop rolling, you now have the option of considering the big picture or by being selective.
I wonder if that’s how the term “lost your marbles’ came about? Someone trying to sort out their thoughts using a physical example and lost a few pieces a long the way.
I could see how the torment of questions gone unanswered, like the loss of personal property, could drive someone crazy. Especially, when all they were seeking was the truth.
So how do you cope? How do you keep yourself sane when there are things that you still don’t understand, feelings and thoughts and emotions in need of validation, questions that are begging for answers?
In my experience, its easier to change the way you feel. The answer no longer matters if you stop asking the question. Turn away from the torment and it can torment you no longer. Instead, seek new questions and learn to find the solutions within yourself.
I have often found that when you change your focus, you change the way you see the world around you. When you remember what brings you joy, little else seems to matter.
Those missing marbles will resurface eventually. Until then, remain steadfast with your passions.
Those little “ands” in your life are there for a reason and they hold more answers than you realize.